from the notes app #2

By Sarah Wexler

i feel in me this kind of vacantness,

and within that, a sort of embarrassed nakedness.

because i feel like i have so much potential, yet none at all

the world, so vast, my view quite small.

and if i think about it too much, there’s the anxiety,

because all i want is to live with some propriety.

my career so far doesn’t look that great,

everyone else i know already has their own accolades.

and i’m stuck in my childhood house and town,

trying my hardest not to have a breakdown.

because what is a modern woman without her career?

i don’t want my lack of ambition to infect my empowered peers.

i just want somewhere to put this energy.

is there anyone out there who wants to be a part of some synergy?

i want to do something, have some sort of impact,

but the odds around me are feeling quite stacked.

AI is taking all of our jobs,

another day of riots and mobs.

but i have to keep looking forward and keep moving,

because what else can i do other than self-improving?